on growth, gardening boots and grace

I do not understand the mystery of grace — only that it meets us where we are and does not leave us where it found us. ~Anne Lamott

This weekend, I celebrate being cancer free for two years!  The “story” is quite intricate, but just know, that it was God’s grace that I listened to my body and that my Ob-Gyn listened to me.  If we hadn’t trusted our intuition, each other, or God, my life surely would have taken a different path.

As I have mentioned in other writings, cancer and surgery offered me many gifts–discovering the peace and hope friendship can offer, learning how to let others care for me so that I too could care for myself, and appreciating the importance of rest for body, mind and spirit. It was a time of learning to surrender, a skill that has not only served me well as a person of faith but also as a parent, farmer, gardener, and homesteader.

Recently, I had a colleague look at me and say, “I don’t know how you can be so laid back about all of this” as we rushed around trying to finish a project within hours of the deadline.  I looked at her and smiled, “Turning 40 and cancer will do that to you!”  She looked at me inquisitively, and I replied, “I was like you several years ago.  I appreciate where you’re coming from, but hitting middle age the same year I was diagnosed rearranged a few priorities.”  I can’t say that she understood, but I will note that it was a great affirmation for me to hear those words come out of my mouth.

And so, on my anniversary each year, I have bought a little trinket to remind me of how far I’ve come and how much I’ve grown

my new gardening boots

since the new journey I started in March 2010.  This year, I delighted in purchasing pair of floral gardening boots for tromping around the farm and in the compost pile.  Gardening was a saving grace for me the spring I was diagnosed and couldn’t be as active as I’d wanted.  My new boots remind me how therapeutic and nurturing creation and the Creator were for me during that time. They took me where I was in my journey and changed my life in such a way that I am more fulfilled and at peace.   That’s what I have come to call “grace.”

8 thoughts on “on growth, gardening boots and grace

  1. I like you insight! Gardening and grace; isn’t our Creator AMAZING!? Check out companionseedcompany.com for heirloom seeds and info on sustainability! Our site is new and not fully completed but you will find some useful information there! Happy Gardening!

  2. Happy anniversary. The garden completely embodies grace for me. The garden always gives back way more than I put into it. The garden is a place of sanity and healing, and a “force-field” to protect me from the destructive people I cannot avoid in the world. I think about grace when i contemplate the alchemical magic of compost! Yep, I guess I’m a gardening nut. And proud. Love your boots!

  3. I love this idea–19 years cancer free for me and still learning about grace–and celebration, I’ll be instituting this idea in my spiritual practice–starting this year(:

  4. I totally agree with you. Gardening is indeed therapeutic. My husband got a new pair of Hunter Wellies for me, which I use while gardening.

    Glad to hear that you are now cancer-free. Happy anniversary!

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